"这是放在另一个角落抽屉的旋律" Amber

人在心情不好或是情绪非常底落的时候, 总需要寻找一些发泄情绪的方式。
与其把自己封闭在房里面对着那四面死墙，或是不停的乱摔东西或是用爆饮爆食的方法来伤害自己宝贵的身体。
我会宁愿听一首能令我嚎淘大哭，激发我内心不快乐的歌。
把一切的不快乐，委屈和压抑已久的心绪给通通哭出来吧！


何耀珊《不凋零的花》完整MV

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!

Hello! Good morning everyone! Its 4.51am in the morning and i am right here blogging. tadaa..
Seems to have stopped blogging for a while i think i need to get back to the blogging lifestyle once again.
I've changed my skin once again, a black one this time round, couldn't find a very satisfactory one though. But i like it being simple and nice.
hahas.

ROCK ON EVERYONE!

Shake the world ya! Let me shake the world together with you guys, we can definitely make it in JESUS NAME! =)

21 days of one hour prayer!
Let this 21 days be a time of renewal, a time of running back to God, seeking Him with all your heart, all your strength, all your strength and all your mind.
Get spiritually back in shape again!
And get back that yearning, hungry, desire and thirstly if you've lost it:)

希望

希望专辑

Hahas! Da Jie friend just gave her this 希望专辑 from New Life Church! This is something i always wanted and God answered my prayer! wahahahas!! Also, God shocked me too, i shall go into further details later ..
Anyway, in my own opinion, this album is superb! It is filled with many superb songs written and sang by all the nicest songwriters and singers.
There is Liu Geng Hong, Wing Luo Wen Yu, Sun, FIR and many more ...
Listening to this album made me wanna cry.. hahahas.. Its one way to relieve your emotions..

Well, talked about my results, no word could describe my feelings at the moment. God is good yea, super super super duper good! I am so grateful and shocked. He is beyond all i could i ask or imagine, more than anything on earth i could ask for! Tell me tell me, what did exactly do to have deserve such an awesome Father with me by my side..
Actually i thought wouldn't score very well this time round, but i got 2nd in class.. And it is not the position that matters, it is the promise God given me that came to pass..
You never know how stress and exhuasted i felt during the exams, and how helpless and discouraged i am that made me nearly given it all up. But God never fails to give me the assurance and peace in my heart despite me feeling so defeated in my own trapped up mind.
He is the one the gave me the strength to carry on when i was weak.

I am too thrilled to write down anything proper at the moment..
Pardon me, i am simply toooooooooooooooooooooooo SHOCKED and thankful to God!
All glory to my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ! My beloved heavenly Father! :)

Perserve

Blogging is a way of relieving your stress whenever you get trapped or stucked. I mean, it is so hard to perserve. It sounds so easy to talk about but was so hard to do it out in actions. I am really on the verge to give up already. But God i know you will pull me back no matter what.
"Though i walked through the valley of the shadow of death, i shall fear no evil"
Ya what have i been really doing man. I've been really wasting my time away, i need to step out of this vicious cycle ima in to start afresh once again.
It sounds so easy, but it is definitely not to do it out in actions. Here comes my season of challenge, i have so many questions in my mind to ask God. And God never fails to comfort me and give me the rest, peace and assurance i always needed whenever i feel like giving up.
Lord, this time will be the same also right?
Someone experiencing a season of hardness often lose out from the big picture. But i know whatever problems ima going through will come to pass one day. I just need all the support to overcome myself!
Yes, MYSELF! God has been so gracious and wonderful and awesome and beyond all i could ever ask or imagine.
I know i have a purpose, thats why the devil kicks in so often and strong. I will not fail, i will not allow myself to fail be it how difficult the situation is!
DEVIL, IMA GONNA KICK YOU AWAY IN THE NAME OF JESUS!
No weapon form against me shall prosper!
I need to be strong, need to be really really deep deep deep constant constant strong and have FAITH!
i need to change my mindset. whatever whatever. I want to peel off my old skin and let the new one grow again!!

God, God, why must it be so hard?
I always asked God the same question.
And God always tell me the reason again and again no matter how many times i have asked Him.
God, God, God.
Change the situation Ima in right now!
I know i will step out of it with victory very soon! Because i have God!

"我的心情小日记"

I've removed the tagboard away, there's no particular reason. I just wanna make it a bit more personal for not putting up the tagboard hahas:)

But the hit counter is still on! So i can still keep track of those who read my blog. Plus I'll make the comment section open for you guys who wanna comment!
Hmm, but i guess there's nothing much to comment about my blog, it is just a humble little daily devotion of mine where some of you out there made a little effort to visit and read about my rumblings and little-thoughts-of-life. ;) Thanks for the effort=) "我的心情小日记"

I am still quite reluctant to blog in Chinese because it is so troublesome!

My life, my life.. I cannot give up alright!

Both my brain and my mind have turned rusty for the lack of blogging recently. I've got no idea what to write about. And you can see i am writing in bits and pieces and not proper English.
Alright i'll just blog in random order..

Er jie started SOT 3 weeks ago and am currently working part-time and taking freelance. Pity Er Jie she has to stay overnight at office almost everyday to finish the project.

My table is in a mess as my mind is right now.

I want to get recharged and start new again.

I wondered what have i done last Sunday at the old folks home.

I need to list down all my to-do-list before its too late....

And Lastly, just some pictures to end off my random random random post. :)

All Saints Home

Cg Sisters. But where's Eileen?

Like this photo! With En En =)

Dawn and Evelyn.. Both short hair girls.

Serene and Evelyn. ohhoo.. forget to rotate. hahahahs~~~

Happy nicholas carrying all our bags=) looks so enjoy xp

Vivian, "月亮代表我的心" hahahas..

Black and While Evelyn....

tongue-out =)

PDLR

Skin

This is a rather simple skin, but i think is much better than my previous one.

呆在电脑面前一整天， 都不晓得自己要干嘛。。
头有一点痛喔， 有一点点的神志不清。。

So tired..
I wanna sleep.... yawns~~

EXAM FEVER!

Today is 9 May 2008.

Hello everybody!

The reason for blogging in my previous post is because my internt is having some problems and i couldn't create a new post, thus i have to blog in my previous one.
Finally today i had my last paper, so i do not have to stay up late till midnight to study anymore.
"RELIVED"

My little ingredients of life - happiness and love, and not forgetting music and singing=) Thats what i love to do yea. I shall continue loving and doing it till the end of my life.

oh maybe that sounded far too serious. But well....

hahas.
okay, I'm getting a little sentimental and emotional right now, guess its the song that I'm listening to that kind of set me thinking.
Been having quite alot of thoughts recently, if you have been reading my past few entries i've been taking about life..
I think life is a litte too short and precious for us to waste and to drain away our energy for something that will shortchange us(which isn't worth it at all).

Childish thinking, immature behavios, taking things forgranted. lets all wake up from our idea and get on our butt to do something much more significant.
You're never too young to do something great, it lies within yourself to believe it.
Don't despise your youth, life 's too short to be wasted, whats more about youth.

I want to leave a LEGACY and see day BIG BIG picture in my youth day.

No regrets. I will never want to lie on the rocking chair thinking i've wasted all my life away.
Thats life. Take it or Live it.



This is the song i'm listening to.

"不凋零的花"




8 May 2008




I shouldn't be blogging right now.
BUT EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY ENDING TML!


GREAT!

The intense studying every night can finally come to an end to give me some space to breathe.


I got a cut on my hand while tuning the guitar ytd. how cool ah. hahas.


"隐形超人"- Amber. 郭采洁


SEE YA AROUND AFTER THE EXAMS! =)

Pictures!

I think i look a little sick today..

Went to this very interesting Toby Cafe near Riverwalk.

Their food were so so but service was pretty good!

Amber Kuo

:)

Hellos;)

Wanted to update some pictures but the computer doesn't seems willing to cooperate with me. So i update it the next time. hahas.

I really agree that sometimes certain thing just doesnt seem as important as you think it would be after going through an experience that totally blown you away.
Life is really much much more than we think it is..
So we better wake up from our idea and get on our butt to do smth much more significant.


Da jie used er jie's toothbrush to clean the comb. hahahas~lalalaaas~ this is so hilarious~~~

捶不死的精神
诺不弱的勇气

不轻言放弃的霍力
一把感动众人的好声音

"不凋零的花"



感触良多.

I am once again comforted by God's presence :) It has been great, awesome and wonderful being in His presence.

You don't know. I became so nasty just now, i screamed and shouted at my father. I couldn't take it anymore, that i finally broke down and cried. This is the uglier side of Evelyn. I need some relieve. So many things are happening at this crucial time of exams, i cannot allow myself to fall.
And i won't fall, because God will always be there to carry me through. =)

Maybe many people are wondering about my life, wondering what have i been really up to?
Well, it may not seem well on the surface, but i know deep within there's a reason for all these problems to happen. I am good. Yes, good. All by the grace of God.

I just want to say that i am learning. learning to better a better person.
I have so much so much to do and accomplish. I know my purpose.

Tears just burst out the moment i cried out to God, telling Him the desires of my heart and how much i needed His strength to carry on.

I realise there's so much in life i need to do that i cant be wasting my time and draining away my energy. Forget about all those childish thinking, life's much much more than just sitting around everyday wasting your time. "Time passes"

I am good. Though i wasn't in a very good mood in the day but i am comforted right now.
I want to see the big picture.


"My little ingredients of life- happiness and love .. plus a melodious tune.."

I typed out a whole page of words ytd but unfortuately blogger din save my draft thus i'm unable to post it out today.

This is rather frustrating cos i was intending to share about something quite important to me and i really put in alot of effort typing and sharing but it somehow din work. Fine, lets see how am i gonna join those bits and pieces of memories together but i am not gonna do it now cos i'm not in the mood..

I think you will see me with no more teeth soon.

nah... just joking but one of my tooth is going to drop out very soon so i'm going to the dental tml to pluck it out.. Well, i am feeling very unwilling to do so cos i dont want to survive for months looking "bo guy" but i had no choice.

Anyway bad news aside and

let me share something fun..

Just personalise my phone and this is its current state. But i guess the beads are gonna drop out soon like my tooth.

hahas :)

"这是放在另一个角落抽屉的旋律"

"这是放在另一个角落抽屉的旋律" Amber Kuo, 郭采洁

在耀珊的部落格听一听她最新的单曲吧！"不凋零的花"

www.wretch.cc/blog/hellosun

or

go to amber's blog..

http://blog.pixnet.net/amberkuo

enjoy! =)

thoughts..

So many things on my mind to blog about but just don't know where to start with..

hahas maybe i should wait till next time to pen down my thoughts. Just came back from cg and fellowship with Wanyi,Vian and Chris at Sakura.

I've been thinking how long am i still gonna wait to be able to go and learn singing and have tuition.

But the financial situation at home now don't allow..

But its OK! Its fine!

I believe and trust in God that as i continue to sow in His kingdom and be patient to wait upon His blessings, one day what i desire in my heart shall come to pass.

Indeed, "Blessed are those who have not seen yet believe it in their heart."

I just wanna trust God like a child, having childlike faith.

I wanna don't care when it is gonna happen, but i know and simply believe it will come to pass very soon. Yes, very soon. I believe in God!

The feeling and process of waiting ain't that good. But "so-what"?

God still love me and i still love Him. I know He has something greater in stored for me, i don't need to worry a single bit and He is gonna blow me away with something i've never think or imagine.

Went Mushroom farm with the kids ytd. How cute, little children going to mushroom farm. hahas..

我的自拍。。

我的自拍。。
只想把最自然和真实的自己呈现给大家！
我是一个十五岁的女生，未来的路还很慢长呢！

I have an exciting journey with God! I shall not be afraid of anything!!

Amber kuo

I like her.



"I Need You" by Amber Kuo :)

不凋零的花

"不凋零的花"

"I am a little girl of God."

Today i was just so stress up about the mid-year exams. Yes, the mid-year exams everyone is talking about right now.
It has been so trying of me i tried to cover up all that 3 weeks of lessons i have missed. Really i learnt how to fully depend on God's strength and listen to His small little voice in my heart.
It can be so trying and draining to try doing things on your own. But i thank God He gave me the assurance i needed and i have peace in my heart right now.
It just feel so good talking to God. I am just relieved.

I dislike writting bad english. I have not been working on my english for the past months.
I want better writting skills and vocaburary. I want an 'A1' for english for 'O' level.

I asked God in my room today. "God i wonder where do you stand in my room? I know You are here. Are You standing near to the window beside the fan, or sitting beside me on my bed? And if You're sitting on my bed, are You on my left, right or infront of me? How i wish i can see You face to face right now. :)"
Thats what i asked God, sounds like a little girl's question.
I told God i want to be His little girl and abide childlike faith.

:)

Told myself i will not blog today. But just wanna share something:)

Wednesday my best friend commented : "Evelyn, i think you're treating ur church and church stuff too heavy, you're draining yourself."

Am I?

-Bible Study(Wed)
-Children church(Thurs and sat)
-Service(sat)
-Cell Group Meeting(Sun)

Wow, almost everyday in the week i am commited to something in church.
But I find joy in doing all these thing. Because im not doing it for the just the sake of doing, i dont treat it as a chore, i m serving God and touching people, touching lives.

Seriously speaking, if i ever stop visiting my kids and serving cch on sat, i really can't function well. Forget talking about cg and svr, they are a part of my life. I am so excited to meet God and be changed every single week.
It became a lifestyle and a desire for me.

Of course i get tired and exhausted at times when i feel like giving up. But i still perserve on, i can never imagine how my life would be if i am without God, without serving Him and just being in His persence talking to Him.
Thats how my life function and work out, all by the strength and grace of God.

Just random pics and thoughts!

SATURDAY PICTURES.

Eileen and Evelyn's mirror reflection=) Us agaiIN!
Alvin and Evelyn ~~CHEEEEEEESSE~~
With En En..
My face cut-off. hahas!!

Mr Bean pancake flowing with cheese and wanyi's love. ~hahas~~
Last friday, with Alvin=)
So cuteee.. Alvin and Vivian..


Shimin, Evelyn and Lydia
Three of us!

Children are gifts from God. =)

I got to show you my kids, they are so adorable.



"Children are gifts from God."



"Yet they can be a pain on the neck sometimes." cheeky. hahas =)

Kids from the lodge.

Byran(he's actually trying to hide from the cam) and his sister, Anlydia :)

Donovan.

"see! This is the boat teacher Evelyn folded for me!"

Internet connection- turns me off.

This internet connection is really getting me on my nerve! The connection has been running so slow ever since i got back home using and this is surely not the 1st time such thing happens. This has been happening for countless times already. Yes, countless, i've lost count of it. It worsen especially during night-time.

This totally spoils my mood and wasted my time for working on this internet connection whenever i wanna blog, msn, play friendster or check stuff in hotmail. So unproductive. I cannot even upload pictures probably even after trying it for upteem times. Imagine you are happily browsing through and uploading your pics into blogger, then when you click the 'start uploading' button, after loading and lagging for a while, the page will appear such a thing as : "Internet Explorer cannot display the webpage", and give explanation like you may have lost internet connection etc etc. I definitely got tired of this phrase and i never ever wanna see it appear in my computer page again.

There's so many things which i wanna blog about today but it just simply turns me off.

I'm very affected by it thats why i dedicated a post to the router and laptop in my house. Thanks for taking your precious time to read my ramblings.


:)

Cheers people!

Nights! =)

NEVER

I tell myself i will never get food poisoning again.

YES. NEVER!

YO! HAPPY EASTR!


We're in this Easter season once again! CHEERS!! I am so glad that i went for svr in both JW and expo. What else can i say? I really salute to the drama team people, be it the actors, backstage ppl, sound crew ppl and those that simply sacrifice their life and time to make this drama work so well. 2 different drama, 2 different cast, happening at 2 different locations.

I am lazy to type more.

Shall present the pictures for today, you can see that we're still a child-at-heart by playing with all those interesting stuff at the carnival. hahas, yea but im so proud of it, proud of being a child-at-heart. 我是一个大孩子! 哈哈! (though i din join them playing but my heart was with them! hees. )

Suddenly i have this idea of going for blood donations next year when i turn 16 because since 16 is the min. required age.

Just wonder if my parents would agree to it and would i really pick up the courage to go for it. Frankly speaking i'm afraid of PAIN and i will probably faint~ upon seeing blood.. My legs always become soft and wobbly when i see blood. arghh..

Er jie recently downloaded a programme in her laptop that can record whatever songs we want from the internet. So i just need to simply play the song and then press the 'record' button at the top and it'll be recorded down in the laptop. ~So cool ar~ But i wonder if the programme is a legal one. hahas! Once again, HAPPY EASTER TO EVERYONE.
i just changed my blogskin.
How's it? Or do you prefer the previous one? Give some comment ya? THANKS PEOPLE! :)

GOD BLESS.
NIGHTS! =)

My week, holidays..

Its gonna be a review of the week. Monday-Friday, how my holidays goes like :)

Been long since i last did a mon-fri update.

MONDAY
Praise God! Mummy won lottory again, so i woke up with a sudden blessing of 50 dollars placed on my table :) The best thing was she actually initiated to bring me out and get a new phone without even me opening my mouth to ask for it. I wanted a phone badly! Was very happy and surprise upon receiving her msg on the train. Once again, God is never too early or too late, He's always just right on time.
So she brought me out at night to 900++ to search for phone, her buget was only $100plus but i ended up buying a $220 second hand phone. hahas! lols but anyway, i bought it at Sunday Mobile, the uncle was SUPER GOOD to give me a $10 discount and hp pouch for free, NICE :) ( but i lost it in the train just now! ARGHHHH!! SAD! ANGRY!! im gonna get a same new one back!)

TUESDAY
Catch "Leap Years" with Sin Yee at Cathy Cine. Quite like it and enjoyed myself during the show but din cry though. ( i finished a big pack of ruffles while watching) Not really very touching to me. The storyline is too "perfect" but rather a fantasty girls would fall in love with. Afterall i would rate it a just pass :) I like the story but it doesnt really capture me. hahas.

WEDNESDAY
Raining cats and dogs since morning.
Slept till 11plus and meet Melody to Ang Moi Kio Kbox. it was SUPER COLD inside the air-con room especially adding to the cold weather outside. couldn't stand the cold, was shivering while singing~~~. "K" many of F.I.R songs as well and we manage to smuggle Subway into kbox. heeeees =)

THURSDAY
CG BBQ at Preston's Condo. the 1st time ever in my life having a bbq in wet weather. It was raining the whole of this holiday, but was fruitful and fun :) especially fun having to carry an umbrella with you to and fro to the bbq pik and . shelter. Got to know many of Sin Yee 's friends, they're sec 1, so cuutteeee... Brought my friend along too, had fun playing the 'trading game' and another one but i forgot the name =)

Pictures taken at the bbq :

FRIDAY

Out to town with Lydia and Shimin. Had our lunch at Pastamania, i ordered "tuna and bacon pasta" with drinks and garlic bread while Shimin and Lydia had the bakerice. Hmm well i actually prefer the garlic bread to the pasta. Anyway catch "Step Out 2" after lunch, i like the dancing and romance part in the show but overall the show doesnt interest me. hahas sorry maybe i dunno how to appreciate it but just feel thats its not my type. Recently there's no kick to the movies i've watched so..... sorry =) felt that i've been wasting money away watching movie that don't deserve my spending.

Took many pictures ytd but haven got any of them yet. Shall upload once i got them from both of the girls.

I was deciding whether to still go down powerhouse after going orchard with them.

I DID IT! I went down powerhouse to pray by my own. Did my own quiet time in the room and no one was there. i had all the space. Was great. I'm a complative type of person and i enjoy spending quiet and quality moments alone with God. Its amazing to settle/quiet down your heart from the fast-pace and just sit down and enjoy being in the presence of God and find God. There's so much more i am/need to learn to settle myself down in the presence of God. Focusing, setting aside your burdens/troubles, getting your heart right before God and many many more.

I'm yet to finish my homework. arghh.. needa chiong tml!

Wait till i upload all the photos.! I need to have my beauty sleep already. TAke CarE peOple!! :)