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I am still awake and not sleeping while everyone at home are sound asleep.

Hahas my friend just asked me a funny question. 

Hm actually not exactly funny but rather.... hmm something that speaks to my heart. Something that I've been thinking about. 

but not gonna tell you guys. blehs~~

Well,  i wonder how many of you read my blog but that doesn't matter. 

i just want to blog to leave down memories. 

Recently been blogging in chinese cos i feel that it can express my thoughts better.

Like what i blog a few days earlier, i need to get back to myself.

Back to that altar and starting place again.

sometimes we just chose to take the easy way out....

JIA YOU BA! GABATETH! :)

anyway thanks Sidney for replying :) ( don't think he'll read this hahahahas)

We sisters took lotsa pictures today and i am going to post everything up.

Incase anything happen to my phone and i lost everything! hahas :)

Sister missing in the pic: Wanyi.

Yoyoyo Wanyi how are you already? hees you see i dedicated a post to you. lols.

Anyway, hope that you'll get well soon and 'll be able to be back joining us doing crazy stuff together once again.

 Take good care k. :)

Woah i am feeling so excited to blog right now. I always have the tendency to feel very 'high' to blog in the night. Especially mid-night.

Oh actually i have alot to share but er jie gonna use her lappy to do work right now so i'll have to stop blogging.

Gonna go revise for the chem mock exam already, i really hope and pray for the wisdom, understanding and discipline when i study. Quantity plus QUALITY.

I haven been touching my chem book ever since MYE ends and i'll really have to buck up if i wanna do well end of the year and during sec 4 o levels.

I just realize that we are 5 months away to year end and 3 months away from our EYE.

well, time flies and time passes. 

Ok, 'but for everything be anxious for nothing'.

I need to have peace in my heart right now. 

Pray for me alright, thank you :)

Thanks for all the concern from friends as well, i really appreciate it and i am always extremely encouraged and blessed whenever my friends told me that i've helped them in one way or another. Well, if its not by God i wouldn't have been able to help you. Thanks really, a million thanks to you guys. :)

"Faith without works is dead, but faith with works works"

Angry angry.

depressed depressed.

nonsense nonsense.

Sometimes when you are angry you just need to vent it out.

It doesn't mean that you're a nasty person when you vent out ur anger when u're angry.

it is so human, nothing wrong about it.

i dislike those negative remarks people made but sometimes you just have to come to the conclusion that you're one of those kind who does that as well. 

no one is perfect.

Hello people..

hmm.. been a while...

Been a while of  ??

Alright i don't know what i am typing. Just want to crap a little and be crazy for a while.

hahahas..

I was reading one of the crazy blogger's blog (in my own opinion) thats why i ended up blogging like this. 

hees.

okay i am stopping.

The Doll and The White Rose

I hurried into the local department store to grab some last minute Christmas gifts. I looked at all the people and grumbled to myself. I would be in here forever and I just had so much to do. Christmas was beginning to become such a drag.
I kinda wished that I could just sleep through Christmas. But I hurried the best I could through all the people to the toy department. Once again I kind of mumbled to myself at the prices of all these toys. And wondered if the grandkids would even play with them.I found myself in the doll aisle.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw a little boy about 5 holding a lovely doll. He kept touching her hair and he held her so gently. I could not seem to help myself. I just kept looking over at the little boy and wondered who the doll was for. I watched him turn to a woman and he called his aunt by name and said, "Are you sure I don't have enough money?"
She replied a bit impatiently, "You know that you don't have enough money for it." The aunt told the little boy not to go anywhere that she had to go get some other things and would be back in a few minutes.
And then she left the aisle. The boy continued to hold the doll.After a bit I asked the boy who the doll was for. He said, "It is the doll my sister wanted so badly for Christmas. She just knew that Santa would bring it."
I told him that maybe Santa was going to bring it. He said "No, Santa can't go where my sister is. I have to give the doll to my Momma to take to her."I asked him where his sister was. He looked at me with the saddest eyes and said "She has gone to be with Jesus. My Daddy says that Momma is going to have to go be with her." My heart nearly stopped beating.Then the boy looked at me again and said,
"I told my Daddy to tell Momma not to go yet. I told him to tell her to wait till I got back from the store." Then he asked me if I wanted to see his picture. I told him I would love to. He pulled out some pictures he'd had taken at the front of the store. He said "I want my Momma to take this with her so she don't ever forget me.
I love my Momma so very much and I wish she did not have to leave me. But Daddy says she will need to be with my sister."I saw that the little boy had lowered his head and had grown so very quiet. While he was not looking I reached into my purse and pulled out a hand full of bills. I ask the little boy, "Shall we count that money one more time?" He grew excited and said, "Yes, I just know it has to be enough."
So I slipped my money in with his and we began to count it. And of course it was plenty for the doll. He softly said, "Thank you Jesus for giving me enough money." Then the boy said, "I just ask Jesus to give me enough money to buy this doll, so Momma can take it with her to give to my sister and he heard my prayer! I wanted to ask him for enough to buy my Momma a white rose, but I didn't ask him, but he gave me enough to buy the doll and a rose for my Momma. She loves white roses so very very much."In a few minutes the aunt came back and I wheeled my cart away.
I could not keep from thinking about the little boy as I finished my shopping in a totally different spirit than when I had started. And I kept remembering a story I had seen in the newspaper several days earlier about a drunk driver hitting a car and killing a little girl and the Mother was in serious condition.
The family was deciding on whether to remove the life support. Now surely this little boy did not belong with that story.Two days later I read in the paper where the family had disconnected the life support and the young woman had died. I could not forget the little boy and just kept wondering if the two were somehow connected.
Later that day, I could not help myself and I went out and bought some white roses and took them to the funeral home where the young woman was. And there she was holding a lovely white rose, the beautiful doll, and the picture of the little boy in the store. I left there in tears, my life changed forever.
The love that little boy had for his little sister and his mother was overwhelming. And in a split second a drunk driver had ripped the life of that little boy to pieces.

Reading this story breaks my heart. 

Getting back to myself again..

Went to a few blogs just now and i realized that i should really blog more like myself.

Maybe its under the influence of the blogs that i visit that made me often blog like the way they are and miss out the real and true meaning of blogging. 

Where blogging should actually be like a diary where i record down my day-to-day encounters and what i learnt to make me grow in life. And also to remind myself and encourage others through all my thoughts..

I think i need to get back to myself again, find back those passion, fire and dreams i used to have in the past. Being honest and true to myself. 

Ya, and the truth is that everyone will fall and get lost in life.. But its the courage which we chose to uphold that make us stronger and never want to fall back again...

"Courage is not the absence of fear, it is the MASTER of fear"

Finding myself once again, running back to God.

all-out2love belongs to only evelyn alone. :)

用心体会每一天。

让每一天都过得充实， 过得多姿多彩。

不应该只是用嘴巴说说而已。

I am learning to put it out in actions....

Nothing comes forth easy, let me learn, let me make it. 

JIA YOU!

TIME IS SO SCARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYy.......

时间好恐怖哦!

还是我应该这么说, 时间过得好恐怖哦!

Time flies...

Just a blink of an eye, today is already the last day of holidays.

School is gonna restart tml, though i always tell myself that "it is not about how you start but how you END". But often i start better than i end.

I feel that i didn't make good use of this holidays, seems that I've wasted it cos I've not accomplish anything significant. 

Wanted to buck up and study real hard this holidays but still i only kick start a little...

But at least i started a chinese book and i'm already halfway through it. Next i would start a english book.

It is time to start revising for EYE. 

"You fail to plan, you plan to fail"

I need to get a TO-DO-LIST done. 

-Check and reset some goals (1 hour)

eg: Dieting, ca3,ca4 and EYE results, etc

-Clean up my shelves (2-3 hours)

-Set a study schedule/timetable (10 -15min)

-STUDY!

-North View Prayer Meeting

-cch

-VL BS

-Save some money $$ and prepare for the next building fund

-Get myself spiritually and physically back in shape again

PRAY. FAST. READ. 

BS.

The next half of the year is gonna be fruitful. oh-oh nope.

IT MUST BE FRUITFUL. 

 

I MISSED 3 EP OF AMERICAN NEXT TOP MODEL IN TOTAL!

This is first time i am missing so many of its episode, only manage to catch 1 ep for the season...

By the way guys, i've changed my number....................again...........................

But a permanent one this time round....

hahahas..

Honestly speaking i felt very stress cos i've not been using line for many years and i hope that i won't exceed the supposed amount.

Oh, ask me for my new number alright! :)

GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!

more pictures to come!

First reaction when upon seeing this : "FAINTS~~~"
HAHAHAS saw this in Sihui 's MSN DP so decided to COPE it from her.
Just wanna share this lame picture with you guys for a good laugh.

LOLS...


Anyway, our beloved Johnson Hay is finally back to SG on Monday!
HEHES. One more thing, he-is-attached!
Wohoo, our leader is finally attached. Congratulations! :)

Many of us went down to the airport to welcome him on Monday.
And this is what we did.........



Funny and crazy us.
We actually took these paper from BK. Those paper which are actually meant for placing on the top of the tray for serving. The 20 over of us shouted like crazy and many others thought that it was some celebrity whom touched down. Hm, thats probably how "famous" Johnson is..
We're like his little fans. And beside being a leader for us, he seems like our 'papa' as well.

OH AND BY THE WAY,

Campus superstar, "Shawn Tok" is coming over to perform for children church this saturday! So to all his fans out there, please don't miss this great chance to see and hear him singing in real person and don't forget to bring your camera along too!

"人因梦想而伟大"

有时候矢去过，
才会更加珍惜所拥有的。

只要是人，应该都是这个样子的吧。
拥有的时侯不好好珍惜，直到矢去候才慌然大悟，知道愿来这件事情或东西对自己来说那么重要。。。

所以所以，我们就不要再抱怨生命里头一些小有缺陷，美中不足的地方啦，为何

不多多仔细观察我们生命里，还有哪些值得我们去好好珍细的事情的呢？

看照片时间

Quite random..

Hmmm.. Haven had a proper update for quite awhile.
Been just updating pictures and writing short posts. Think it is time for me to just share a little about life recently and the thoughts that i have. Been quite lazy. opps :D

Hahas, i realized that there are actually quite a few people whom i do not them but they have been reading my blog. Those silent readers.
Hellos silent readers! : How are you?
I must really improve on my english ah.
Feel so exciting. So what are your comment about my blog? Maybe you can leave a comment at my facebook or friendster. hees =) or just simply add me at biscuitroad@hotmail.com .

"The Show Down"
We had a Zone outing called "The Show Down" at Pasir Ris Park today. Was actually feeling quite reluctant to go in the first place due to the wet and cozy weather in the morning. But still i managed pushed myself there despite having such a cozy weather for sleeping.
Well, i came to a conclusion that i am not a pig or lazy bum so i shouldn't be sleeping and wasting my all time away at home the whole day when there's such a happening and fun outing at Pasir Ris.
Thank God that i went because it was very fruitful :)

I was in the Team 10 tog with Sin Yee, Ivan and Ce Cao and Faith from E371. Where Ce Cao was the team leader and Alicia being the Assistant.
To Alicia: Hello Alicia :) nice to have meet you, lets keep in touch and hope to see you in church or zone meeting very soon :) Take care =)
And the rest of the team members too. Nice to have meet you guys, I think we all did our best today and i had fun playing tog with you all. :)
I think i really cho ga liao today and i threw all my "image" and "self-awareness" away in the dustbin. It was such fun playing all the games when you decided not to care about your image or anything else. hahas. Just focus on having fun and making new friends.

Yea though my team din win any prizes but like what i said i had a lot of fun getting dirty and co-ordinating while playing the games with my team members. We got in 4th at the tele-match, so HAPPY TEAM lets give ourselves a round of applauds. ~~claps~~claps~~!!
HEES.

MY THOUGHTS
Time to share a little of my thoughts these few days.
God is really good. He's very very good. Thats the reason why the word 'GOD' and 'GOOD' has only an 'O' difference.
I met with a group of people today. Or in fact to be specific, i met them just now.
I was actually a little discouraged about something recently but i felt the assurance of God to continue to have faith and trust in Him no matter how bad the situation around us may seems to be when i met them.
Finally, I had my answer and encouragement from God when i met with the group of people whom i don not know at all in the past. Thank God.
God is so amazing, so real and so on time.
I think i had my answer and i need to work on it further.
haahs. Maybe you do not know what am i talking about but its okay.

Revival is coming.
Open up your spiritual mind and eyes.
Envision together with me.
Surely, i know revival is coming.
Lets continue to pray and fast. Be ready in season and out of season.
"I can see it already, so i can have it."
Vision that together with me too.
Yes, indeed REVIVAL IS COMING.
"You see that too, so you will have it for sure."
If that is from the Lord.
"No one can ever run away from the call of God"

BELIEVE IT, SEE IT, AND YOU WILL HAVE IT.

But one thing that i've learnt, so what if its a divine calling, only the disciplined and those who desired with a humble heart will eventually get to the promised land.

Lets not forget the basic, which is to love God and be a blessing to the world.
PRAY. READ THE WORD. FAST.

JIA YOU EVERYONE.

歌曲:背影
作词:蓝小邪
作曲:关大州
编曲:洪信杰
演唱:林宥嘉

三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
He......
一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己

你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近

感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜

我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你


感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜

感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意

BY2 "不够成熟"




想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念 你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要试过几次了以后才懂
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥——挥手
想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念 你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要试过今天的以后才懂
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥——挥手
如果有一刻 我们有缘在见
你会不会想起说过的永远
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥——挥手


Make a guess how old are they =)
In my own opinion, i think they're History Makers.

HELLOS. I just woke up from sleep.
Finally i can rest at home the whole day tml to study and clean up my shelves.
Was actually suppose to send Johnson off and meet the rest for Swensens just now but i fall asleep at home.
Feel so bad about it,i saw that my hp was flooded with 9 messenges and 9 miss calls when friends when i woke up.

P.S : Sorry everyone for not picking up your calls and replying your smses just now cos i was too tired. =)


Seriously i need a good rest and a time for myself tml to recharge.
I need to be charged up physically and spiritually.
I need to pray.
I need to read the word of God.
and...
I need to fast.
Plus i need to continue with dieting and get fit exercising again.

Pray for me.

hahas. See you !!
Godod night.

我觉得有时候用华文来打文章真是别有一番风味。因为往往那些所不能用英文来形容的心情都可以利用华文更明确和完善的表达出来。
有时侯一些英文的道理听久了，我们人就会开始变得麻木起来。
哈哈哈！我很感主让我能精通双语，这样一来我就能用另外一个角度和表现方式去好好仔细的想一想人生道理　：）

但之前我一定要先把我的华文水评给提高。

我一定要好好的加一加油！

"一天一粒萍果,医生远离我"

Recently i am into learning singing and guitar without professional coaching, thank God there's a few help that my friends and sister can offer, and thus i am able to learn something i always liked even though i cannot take up any lessons now yet.

haahas but thats okay! The process of waiting makes me learn how to treasure the things i have even more. And also

"waiting is a beautiful process" - Er Jie Helen and Peggy.

There's this BS brothers that came to perform for church ytd. Man, they're a pair of jap brothers who are only age 8 and 13 respectively and they dance really well. SO CUTEEEEEEE~~~ Such talented brothers.
I really think we should start learning nurturing our talents at a young age, because it'll be too late to start when you grew up.

5 June 2008

hellos. This is gonna be a photo blog. I have so many pictures to post up but sadly i lost some of them.

Actually Evelyn is rather zilian too if you din realise it in the past. hahas. Pardon me. Girls are like that, and sometimes even guys too =)

"faints"~~ hahas xp





























Again Evelyn has been sleeping at quite a ridiculous hour of 4am or 5am for the past few days. Been really guilty about because i felt i've wasted the whole morning sleeping rather then studying, praying or even doing things that seem more significant.

Well i think i've had more than enough rest so i make a promise to myself i will make it a point to sleep latest by12am everyday so as to clock up my beauty sleep hour and also recharged myself up.
Spending the whole morning sleeping and midnight surfing net ain't doing you any good, you're simply just wasting all your precious time away.
I think i need to be wise to make full use of every single day.
So Evelyn, JIA YOU and GABATETH!!

So as i've mentioned i slept till 230pm today and went down for cch P.U.S.H camp @ 615 Riverwalk. Wow, it was very power packed and was something new for the kids to really get on their butt to PRAY.UNTIL.SOMETHING.HAPPENS.
They reminds me of when ima still a kid in cch, where i don't really have a prayer life. but since graduating from cch, Pastor Kong's teaching on prayer has changed my perspective of being a Christian and our mindset and lifestyle on prayer. Where prayer is very crucial for us in our walk with God in order to commune and build a personal relationship with Him.

Evelyn seriously needs to invest herself a diary cos the demand of remembering all the events and things to do has gotten her crazy.
Is there any suggestions on the places that offer good and affordable diary?

P.S : Mummy is flying over to Malaysia. Note the word 'flying'. Lets pray for journy mercy =)

good night everyone.
take care